Lately I’ve been getting these feelings that I haven’t experienced for many, many years. That feeling of my blood vessels failing, that itching, like if my blood had suddenly turned to warm coca-cola. Total helplessness, pain, and a giant dam holding back the tears. Losing appetite and sleep. Blasting the stereo until I can’t hear myself thinking anymore. Driving with eyes shut. Breathing slowly to take in as much oxygen as possible.
Not knowing how to stop all this. Wanting to be happy again – so so bad.
I hate it.